I have occasionally mentioned both here and elsewhere the anxiety problems that have plagued me throughout my life. For the most part I managed to get this under control thanks to the amazing modern wonder that is medication, but sometimes it just sneaks up you anyway. These last few days have been like that.
It’s been difficult to focus on, well, pretty much anything. Logging into WoW is followed by logging out 15 minutes later, not because I don’t want to play or don’t have anything to do, but because I feel like too much of a basket case to do anything. I did manage to play some Warcraft 3 the other day. I think that game works nicely as a distraction because, as an RTS, it forces you to pay attention to it and only it. So that was helpful, at least.
There’s no real point of this post other than to say that I’m still here, just having “technical difficulties”. Hopefully it all passes soon, because I just want to play video games!
Fortunately I think it’s beginning to (slowly) subside, so hopefully there will be some more gaming time today. 🙂
Is being scared of Heroics silly? Probably? Yeah, probably. I’m not scared of Raids but I am scared of Heroics. I imagine it’s because a Heroic is smaller so there’s a greater sense of personal responsibility. Who knows, though, really?
Anyways, I decided it was time to CONQUER MY FEAR so I queued up for a Heroic this morning. It was Upper Blackrock Spire, which I haven’t done since, oh, about ten million years ago when it certainly wasn’t re-tuned for level 100 yet. Unfortunately Blizzard decided to throw a bunch of “Instance Not Found!” errors in my face and not let me zone in so I had to drop group.
Later I tried again and this time got Grimrail Depot. I breathed a sigh of relief because I’ve done this one about fifty times on normal. It went smoothly, except for one bit where I almost died for no reason (still not sure what that was about) and yeah. It was nice and smooth and I got my Heroic achievement. All’s well that ends well.
Still, I’m scared to do it again for some reason. Why? I don’t know. I’ve talked before about how I most certainly did not used to be this way, and now I am. I don’t get it.
Either way, it’s still something I’m working on overcoming. Maybe I’ll even do another Heroic! …someday!